Monday, June 9, 2008

When do you feel most lonely??

I'm sorry as this would be some what an EMO post. Currently having a short break, I should be enjoying the break and do whatever I like!!!

However everything change in just one call from home last night. I knew yesterday was Tuan Wu Jie, what they call it as Dumpling Festival. Dad did smsed me that they will have family gathering from my mum's side of the family at our house in Bukit Rimau. I wanted to call home too but was not sure what time is best. So delayed since I had a small gathering with Mei Yen, Angeline and Chee Sing. We had our version of gathering in Sydney, doing steamboat.

Then when we were watching movie at my living room, suddenly the phone call came from home. Dad called and we chatted for a while and I actually forgotten my cousin Wei Ting's birthday is coming until my dad told me they are celebrating her birthday. Then I managed to catch up with her and found out she moved to the new house already and my other cousin starting her new job today. Then my little cousin bro talked to me also and what actually make me miss home so much was when i heard my nieces talked to me.. to my surprise the 2nd neice that only seen me once last CNY, she talked to me as if she know who am i. Then I talked to their grandmother, my aunt and from that moment, I started missing home a lot. By the time i talked to my mum, my voice went numb.

I really miss the big gathering we always had and now that my bro and I are all away from home, I actually felt the guilt, why I am still here when I could have gone back and be with my parents and my relatives. This is the time when I feel most lonely. Though I have friends and lucky to have them around me here in Sydney, but family love is something no one can replace.

Mesmerizing those moments,



Top to Bottom : Mummy, Daddy, Bro Panda, Cousin Wei Ting, Cousin Tze Cheng & Niece Ying Wen

That's all for now.. with all the love around.... <3>

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